I care about your understanding

Today I'am writing with the intention of being understood. My 16 years of living half of which I was a toddler and a teen I started asking myself  why is their a  border between United states and mexico. I knew about the border since I was young because it was always brought up and even though I will always disagree with having a border I will never truly understand why their is a separation between mexico and the united states. I Can go on with this question of mines but I will never get the answer I want to hear. So every once in a while  I ask myself different types of  questions. At the same time I will never get the same answers because I feel like the answers will always just be opinions to me. One of the questions I ask myself  why do farm workers get payed less then stores actually earn for the supply whether  its fruits or veggies. I also think of the families who sacrifice their life by migrating and I also believe many other people think the way I do but theirs not much to do with this situation. I constantly think about people and Its not like I love it but I truly care because in the end we are all humans no matter what we do, how we act, and  who we are because every single person has emotions.
 I then start wondering about myself and how I miss doing a lot of the things I used to do. I look back to freshmen year and see what  I could've done to prevent bad things from happening and I start realizing that I  had stopped trying  as I did when I was a freshmen. I really don't  understand why I stopped caring about myself. During jr year I feel like everything has changed and I don't know how to improve in most of the things I do. At times I feel like I can't do anything because of all the times people have brought me down but then I realize that I'am stronger then I'am. This upcoming Saturday I will be racing with the cross country team along with 16 other schools and I have so many mixed emotions because I'am injured and if my leg gets worse then that's another bad season. After all I'am adriana and this is how I think.